Slowly Dying

I need stability
I need a constant
Someone with the same mentality
Someone that wont forget

I have this fear
That no one will stay
That they'll steer clear
Because Im not okay

I don't want to be alone
I want someone by my side
I want a family and a home
Someone to turn to when I cry

But when I think I've finally found it-
What I've been searching for my whole life-
Suddenly the pieces refuse to fit
And Im left feeling like I've been stabbed a million times

What am I doing wrong?
What cant I be happy?
Has it been a game all along?
What is it that Im lacking?

Here lately it seems so useless
Maybe I should just stop trying
Because as much as I hate to confess
The hope I had is slowly dying